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101 Questions

Here is a set of 101 of my favorite questions that I draw from, whether it’s to shape my day, solve a problem, figure out next steps, or get “on path.”

1. What’s the way forward?
2. What do you want your life to be about?
3. Who do you want to be and what experiences do you want to create?
4. How does that serve you in terms of who you are and who you want to be?
5. Are you giving your best where you have your best to give?
6. What do you want to accomplish?
7. What do you want to do more of each day? What do you want to spend your time doing more of?
8. What do you want to spend less time on?
9. If this situation were to never change, what’s the one quality I need to truly enjoy it?
10. If not now, when?
11. If not you, who?
12. What’s right with this picture? (if you always ask, “What’s wrong with this picture?” this is a nice switch)
13. How can you make the most of the situation? If there are no good options, what’s the best play I can make for this scenario?
14. Who else shares this problem? Who would solve this problem well? (a great way to find models and learn from the best)
15. What would do?” How would I respond if I were Bob Hope? Leonardo da Vinci? Guy Kawasaki? Seth Godin? etc. (this is a great way to come up with new ideas or plays for your situation)
16. What are you pointing your camera at? (a simple way to direct your day on a scene by scene basis)
17. What’s good enough for now?
18. What can you be the best at in the world?
19. What’s the most effective thing for me to focus on?
20. Are you asking the right question? Is that the right question?
21. How is that relevant?
22. What’s that based on?
23. What’s the goal? What are the goals?
24. What would success look like?
25. What do you need to be successful? What do you need to be successful in this situation?
26. Is it working? Is it effective?
27. What do you measure? What are the metrics?
28. What are the tests for success?
29. How do you know it’s working?
30. How do you know when you’re done?
31. What did you expect?
32. Are you creating the results you want?
33. Does it matter?
34. Will it matter in 100 years?
35. Is it worth the effort?
36. What actions have I taken? What steps have I tried? ( a great sanity check when you’re testing your ability to take action)
37. What’s next?
38. What do you want to do?
39. What’s best for you?
40. What’s the best thing for now?
41. What’s your next best thing to do?
42. Is that a good idea?
43. So what? Now what?
44. What’s the problem?
45. What’s the threat?
46. What’s the concern?
47. When do you want it by? You want what by when?
48. Who needs to do what when?
49. Who needs to do what differently?
50. Who should do what when?
51. What would you have them do differently?
52. What’s wearing you down?
53. What’s lifting you up?
54. Why do you get up in the morning and come to work?
55. What do you want to experience? What do you want to experience more of?
56. What are you trading? What are you trading up for?
57. What did you learn that you can use next time?
58. What would you do differently next time around?
59. Where’s the growth?
60. What would people pay you for?
61. Do you want to run towards or away from the problem?
62. How big is the pie, how big is your slice?
63. Does it make business sense?
64. Is it business critical?
65. What’s our capacity?
66. What’s our constraint?
67. What are the KPIs (Key Performance Indicators)?
68. What’s our core business?
69. What does the market want?
70. Is it push, pull or indifferent?
71. What’s the trend?
72. What to cut back on?
73. What does the pro know that you don’t? (this is a good way to figure out if knowledge or insight can make a difference)
74. Now what are you going to do about it?
75. Can you teach it to someone else?
76. How can I use this?
77. What do you want to say?
78. What’s the right thing to do?
79. Is now the right time?
80. Is this the right forum?
81. How much time do you have?
82. What are you making time for?
83. How much time should you make for it?
84. What can you do all day long?
85. What are you spending the bulk of your time on?
86. Does your schedule reflect your priorities?
87. If you had all the time in the world, how would you spend your time?
88. If you had all the money in the world, how would you spend it?
89. Where are we on the map?
90. What would make life more wonderful for you?
91. How can you chunk it down?
92. How fast can you do it?
93. What’s the impact?
94. What would you like to have happen? What would you like instead?
95. What’s the opposite of that?
96. How might that be true?
97. What are you seeing that I’m not?
98. What did you see, what did you hear?
99. What’s the writing on the wall?
100. What’s their story?
101. Who’s stopping you? What’s stopping you? What’s holding you back?

The Bible Matters

Excerpted from Doxa: What You Believe Matters

There once was a seven-year-old boy who liked to help his mom in the kitchen. He’d come home after school, while she was baking, and he’d learn how to cook. His mom would write down recipes and put them in a cookbook so he could remember them. His mother had a knack for cooking, and because of his affection for her, the boy always wanted to go back and read her notes on how to make a great meal.

Now, over time the boy grew up and became a master chef. He became very confident in his ability to create a great meal, and so he stopped reading this old cookbook. He became more and more convinced of his ability to present something independent of all his experiences with his mom.

After a while, his enjoyment of cooking (even as a master chef) began to diminish. He didn’t find that he liked his recipes as much any more. He noticed that he wasn’t receiving the same number of compliments. He didn’t feel the same sense of connection with his mother that he did when he was a little boy and used to do these things.

Then, in the middle of his career, this fellow walked away from cooking. He didn’t use the cookbook anymore, and he didn’t really feel connected in the same way to his mom. He stopped cooking entirely, finding that he no longer enjoyed being in the kitchen or even remembering his childhood culinary adventures.

This story was relayed to me as a young boy, about the importance of learning and internalizing the Bible. There were a few key points here – that the Bible is meant to guide us, that it is a resource of instruction and history, etc – but mostly what stuck with me was the sadness of losing that connection with God. If for no other reason, we engage scripture primarily to stay connected with our Creator.

Heroes

Excerpted from The Supreme Tao of Jesus: A Commentary on Colossians

Colossians 4.2-18

The names of the people at the end of Colossians are the names of heroes.

Paul describes Tychicus as being much-loved and Onesimus (the escaped-slave turned Christ-follower about whom Paul’s letter to Philemon was written) as being faithful; Aristarchus, Mark, and Justus were great companions and the only Jewish coworkers Paul has in his ministry; Epaphras – the pastor of the Colossian church – is held up as an example of prayer and confident leadership; Luke and Demas are warmly included as members of the community; and Nympha is mentioned by name (a particular honor for females in that day and age) as someone with whom the Colossians are encouraged to cultivate a relationship and learn from all that she’s doing.

If I were to write a letter to my former church back home, I might conclude that letter by telling everyone:
that Jvo and the rest of the Westwinds’ staff send their greetings– and that he and Ben are the only Baptists who will still return my calls; I might thank them for loaning us Vince McLaren for a week to help us out with our podcasting ministry and teach Jay Cordova how to manage our tech set up; I might also pass along that Andy Ladwig and Brad Kimpell– who some of my friends have met over lunch or during a card game– say hi; and that they should be in prayer for our friend Kirk– who used to be in full time ministry but had a bad experience that may have left him out-of-play.

Of course, what Paul does is a little more significant than that. He’s not merely re-introducing old friends, he’s also making some introductions for the very first time and thereby giving some credibility and honor to
those named in the letter.

The people Paul mentions are notable Christians who were instrumental in the spread of the Gospel. For instance: 

Aristarchus was thrown in jail for preaching about Jesus.

Mark and Luke each wrote a Gospel (Mark’s Gospel is largely based on Peter’s stories and recollections of Jesus, so Mark was also important because he was personally connected to one of the original disciples).
Mark, Aristarchus, and Justus were Jewish converts who had successfully managed to sidestep all the heresy and weirdness other Jewish converts were trying to push onto the church– so they were good examples of what it looks like to completely forsake your former religion for faith in Christ.
Epaphras was the Colossians’ own pastor who had joined the big leagues of those traveling and preaching the Way of Jesus in new places.
Nympha was a courageous heroine who risked her personal security to start and host a church.

Heroes all.

Perhaps because we’re afraid of putting people on a pedestal, we Christians don’t do a very good job of honoring those among us who have given much, or accomplished much, for Christ and his kingdom.

We should remedy that.

Now we ask you, brothers, to respect those who work hard among you, who are over you in the Lord and who admonish you. Hold them in the highest regard in love because of their work.
1 Thessalonians 5.12-13

If you suffer for doing good and you endure it, this is commendable before God.
1 Peter 2.20

My Dad has been a pastor for over 48 years. Given that the average time one serves as a pastor in North America is 2.2 years, Dad’s tenure is quite an accomplishment. He has pastored five churches, served on
over a dozen international ministry boards, presided over two schools of ministry, still pastors a local church, still serves as the Bishop of his denomination, and still sits as the Chairman of the Board for a prestigious private school. Dad has preached in over thirty countries, delivered food and medical supplies to missions, and smuggled Bibles behind the Iron Curtain during the Cold War. That’s quite a resume.

To celebrate his 25th year as the Senior Pastor of Calvary Christian Church, friends and family put together a banquet dinner and a ceremony in honor of Dad and his achievements. It was all very nice, but Dad had sat through a few of those things for others over the years, and it didn’t seem to affect him emotionally.

Until the end.

The last presentation of the evening was from someone announcing that a Gordon A. McDonald scholarship fund had been set up to reward an outstanding academic student who showed moral fiber and aspired
to ministry. Dad cried. That scholarship represents everything he’s tried to achieve in his life, everything he wants to be, and everything he’s ever hoped to replicate in others. He was truly honored.

Seeing Dad affected in such a way has made me reflect on how rare those occasions are when we hold others up in high esteem and thank them for their contribution to the kingdom. But those who have gone before us– whether Aristarchus or Gordon A.– are worth remembering. They raise the bar, they set the standard, and they show us what it means to live lives wholly devoted to God. The very least we can do to honor them is to read their names at the end of Paul’s letters and reflect on who our heroes really are.

On the metaphor of The Cue

Our weekend gathering at Westwinds is called The Cue.

In theatre, a CUE is a familiar term. Whether it’s a warning, a standby, or a go, the CUE tells us what happens next.

In music theory, a CUE is a guideline for instrumentation. It’s the “who plays what where” part of music. It can be a mark for improvisation of a specific instrument.

In the game of billiards, the CUE is what puts the game into motion. It’s the cue stick and cue ball that guide each ball into the pocket.

In motion picture film prints, the CUE marks a point on the reel when the film is ending and it is time to switch to a new reel to continue the projection.

In personal fitness, a CUE is a message given by a group fitness instructor to inform participants of upcoming sequences, such as a change in stretching direction, etc.

In technology, a CUE or show control is the linking together and operation of multiple systems in coordination with one another. An example of CUE or show control would be linking a video segment with a number of lighting cues, or having a sound track trigger animatronic movements -- or all of these combined.

In computing, a CUE (cue sheet, or cue file) is a metadata file which describes how the tracks of a CD or DVD are laid out. Cue sheets have a ".cue" filename extension. For an audio CD, a cue sheet specifies titles and performers for the disc and its tracks as well as the names of one or more audio files to be used (MP3, WAV, etc.).

At Westwinds, The Cue is not unlike all these things.

At The Cue (in The Cue?) we talk about new things, what’s next, where God is leading, and we fund dreams to shadow God in the redemption of the world. We listen to God and his word and we ask Him, “What next?” When we leave The Cue, we enter a world of possibilities. For the spiritually curious, the religious disenfranchised, the artist, the intellectual, and everyone in between—The Cue is a place to begin and a place to belong for your entire spiritual quest.

At The Cue, we are encouraged to find our part. Our special part. Sometimes, we play along as an orchestra, all parts scored. Sometimes, it’s our turn to break out in the solo—still in perfect harmony with the score but with our own feel, vibrato, style, and originality. As God made us—for His purpose.

The Cue is a place to go out from. In many ways, it sets things in motion. We gather. We disperse. We love on the world. We love on each other. We do something for the kingdom. It’s not just a place we go . . . to.

The Cue is about change. Originality. Authenticity. New life. Breath. Creation. Beauty. Seasons. We talk about where we’ve been and we talk about what the new season looks like. It’s a marker for us. Through series’, scripture, and seasons, one reel moves in to the next. We don’t just observe the movie. We are the movie.

The Cue is a place to check our spiritual health. To check our pulse. To stretch. To nurture. To learn new moves and routines. To learn how to create new healthy habits. To listen. To move. To tone. To feel the burn.

The Cue is about synchronization. The same page.  Multi-sensory followership. Responding to God in worship with all that we are—heart, mind, soul, emotions, will, intellect, attitude, finances, body, habits.

And, The Cue is a place to be with everyone else who contributes a track to the playlist. We are the soundtrack. You are the soundtrack. The only difference is, these files are constantly being rewritten, remixed, reproduced, fine tuned, and rearranged. It’s a living soundtrack.

Join us at The Cue.

Mission

Excerpted from Seasons of Christian Spirituality: Kingdomtide

I am the living bread which came down from Heaven: if any man eat of this

bread, he shall live for ever: and the bread that I will give is my flesh, which I will

give for the life of the world.

John 6.51

King Abgar Ouchama V of Edessa was one of the first Christian kings in history. But his

conversion story is weird. Many Eastern Orthodox believers consider some version of the story to be gospel truth. Many of the details have been historically verified and all persons involved were actually alive and gave testimony to the events. But I’m not yet ready to nominate this one for the solid gold integrity award. For now, let’s continue to call it a fanciful Christian legend, useful in illustrating a point.

Abgar lived and ruled in Syria during the public ministry of Jesus. He had heard of Christ’s miraculous powers and his claims to divinity and was quickly convinced of both, despite being separated from Jesus by several hundred miles. Abgar got mysteriously ill about the time that Christ’s persecution by the Jewish religious leaders was heating up and getting violent, so the king wrote to the King of Kings and offered him political asylum in exchange for a prayer of healing.

Abgar had his court archivist, Hannan, visit Christ and deliver the message in person. Jesus declined, but when Hannan returned to Edessa he carried with him a portrait of

Jesus that he claimed was not made by human hands. According to Doctrine of Addai (4^th part two: how to lead a mission 717 century AD) this portrait was crafted by God Himself, and when the archivist placed it in front of King Abgar, it spoke these words:

Happy are those who believe in me, but have not seen me…When I have ascended to my Father I will send you one of My disciples. He will heal all your sufferings and your city will be forever blessed because of your faith.

Some time passed before anything else happened, and Abgar’s condition continued to

worsen. After the ascension of Christ Thomas the Apostle sent Thaddeus (one of the 70

followers of Christ, from Luke 10) to Abgar. Abgar was promised in a vision that salvation was coming, and when Thaddeus entered into the royal court Abgar fell on his knees and cried out, ”Are you really one of the disciples of Christ?” To which Thomas replied, “All your desires will be fulfilled if you believe in Jesus Christ, the Son of God.”

“I have come to believe,” Abgar said, and was healed instantly.

After this, Thaddeus worked his way through Edessa putting his hands on people, blessing and healing them in the name of Christ. Pagan temples and brothels alike were closed or put out of business. And although no one was forced to convert, many thousands accepted Christ that day and each day after.

It’s a cool story, and very old which, if nothing else, demonstrates that the purpose of the church is to go out and actually make a difference in the lives of real people. We have been called and commissioned to heal the sick, to cure disease, to fight the power of evil, and to bring the good news of the gospel into every corner of the world.

Somehow our contemporary church has overlooked all of that.

Maybe it’s because we find the supernatural bits of the Bible difficult to rationalize.

Or, maybe it’s because telling others about the gospel seems somehow colonial,

intolerant, or pushy.

Or maybe it’s because we have no real control over the outcomes of the kind of

encounters and that kind of risk is uncomfortable we have gotten away from the

fact that the gospel works in two directions – Heaven later on, but also Heaven-

on-earth now.

In this life, not just the next.

Abgar didn't call out to Christ to gain entrance into Heaven. He called out to Christ

because he was sick and miserable and wanted life to be better and to live well.

We need to reacquaint ourselves with the gospel priority of telling others about

Jesus Christ and what he can do for them and through them and in them and with them.

I understand why we’re reluctant to promise healing, a better life, or better circumstances.

We don’t want to pander to people’s base desires for material comforts or sell the lie of

easy living. Neither do we want to mislead them into thinking that everything will be

better once they become Christians. But to leave out the promise of the gospel to make

a difference in real life – to fix our relationships, to empower us to overcome adversity,

to bolster us to withstand temptation and persecution and trial and misery, to heal our

bodies and restore our flagging spirits – is to leave out the good news.

The church is an agency of healing, working to reconcile us to God, to others, to our true selves, and to the world. Healing the world is comprised of three key facets:

Charity – our service to the world, which is called diakonia in the Second Testament.

Hospitality – our community in (but not of) the world, called koinonia.

Storytelling – our proclamation to the world, called kerygma.

I encourage you to take some time to confess

your reluctance to share the gospel

your insecurities about how people will respond

your fears about whether or not you’ll tell it well.

Come before God with a humble heart and repent for narrowing the scope of the gospel to something purely about life after death, for narrowing the scope of the gospel to something purely about the quality of earthly life.

And then turn around and tell everyone you see the good news that God isn't just trying to give you metaphysical fire insurance, but abundant life in the here and now, that God isn't looking to punish you, but to reward you with something better than what you've been able to provide for yourself, that God’s plans aren't just limited to a few special people, but include the redemption of the world, every culture, tribe, nation, language, city, country, and ethnicity, that God’s plans are not merely His, but ours, too, as we participate with Him in healing the world.

Common Questions About Hell

What about Purgatory?

Purgatory is an “in-between” state in Catholic theology meant to delineate the space between when we die and when we go to heaven.  It is a condition in which the souls of Christians are made ready for heaven.

Evangelical Christians find the doctrine of purgatory suspicious for three reasons: [1] because it’s not found in the canon of the Scriptures, only in the apocrypha (specifically 2 Maccabees 12.41-16); [2] because the doctrine didn’t appear for almost 1100 years after Jesus left the earth; and [3] because purgatory depends upon special “revelation” given to the Catholic church during the Middle Ages. By appealing to the authority of the church at a time when it was selling indulgences to release souls from torment, this doctrine has no credible basis for belief among Protestants.

What about people who have never heard about Jesus—do they go to Hell? 

Jesus said “no one comes to the Father except through me,” meaning that there is only one way to escape Hell and enter Heaven: a relationship with Jesus.

However, just as Jesus is the only way to Heaven, we must understand that there are many ways to find Jesus.  Some find Jesus through intellectual belief, some through dreams (like Pharoah), some through visions (like Balaam), or prophesies or strange experiences.

We cannot overlook the creativity of God to get the gospel out.  God wants people to be saved and is capable of revealing Himself to all in order for every single person to be given a justifiable opportunity to embrace their Creator. 

What about babies?  Do they go to Hell?  

This is a disturbing question that’s asked a lot, especially among people who grew up in very religious homes where there is a lot of anger and hellfire and brimstone kind of talk.  If they lose a child, they get terrified that the baby is going to end up in hell.

Consider this, however: “Shall not the Judge of all the Earth do what is Just?” (Genesis 18.25).

Since we know God is good, and He is the Judge of all, we can be confident that God will not unfairly damn any soul – especially innocents or invalids – to eternal torment.

In 2 Samuel 12, we read about King David’s son dying as an infant.  It is a sad story, but in the midst of that sadness we read about David’s assurance that he will see his child in the next life. David has this unshakeable confidence that he will be with his dead child in the presence of God.

Finally, we know that Jesus had a special concern for children. Jesus gathers the children to himself and said: “Suffer not the little children to come unto me” (Matthew 19.14). 

If you know someone who has lost a child and they’re worried about this (God forbid that you would ever be in that situation or that they would), you can give them all manner of comfort.

Is there a last chance for redemption at the time of our death?

No. There is a spectacular responsibility on the way you live right now.  Live now the way you want to live for eternity.  If what you want ultimately is to be with God then, then you must begin to be with God now.

Is there anything wrong with “Last Rites?”

Not necessarily.  In fact, I think the idea of giving your life to God and committing your soul into His care with your dying breaths is a beautiful and sincere notion.  Some people, however, use the Last Rites as a cop out.  They plan to live like fools, rejecting God in this life, and then quickly beg for forgiveness at the end to sneak their way into God’s good graces.  In a case like this, which – sadly – is surprisingly common, we must ask ourselves how sincere our “last-minute” repentance truly is—if it is insincere, we risk Hell.  Are you willing to risk an eternity in torment on a gamble like that?

Do you believe eternal positions are fixed at death forever more?  Why or why not?

The people who go to Hell are there because they don’t want to be with God.  The Scriptures really seem to indicate that once you are there in Hell, there is no way out.

I love God, but have made mistakes and still prospered.  Am I going to Hell?

That’s such a sad, sad question.  I, too, love God and I have made mistakes and still prospered.  I make mistakes all the time.  I get mad at my kids.  I lose my cool.  Ben jokingly said that it’s never safe to take me to a conference of church leaders because it’s like taking a Pit Bull to a playground…you’re just waiting for an “incident” to occur.

I am riddled with sin and God has still prospered me. I feel so gracious, so grateful and thankful to God for the life I have.  I don’t think I’ve ever been happier. I don’t think my family has ever been better.  That’s what we call grace—God’s grace for me, loving me in spite of my sin that while I was still a sinner, Christ died for me.  He died just because he loved me in all my crap and all my garbage.  He would die again tomorrow for me, for the person I am now.   Whatever good things in this life I enjoy, I enjoy because of his grace, his common grace poured out to all humanity.

The last question I would separate from the previous statement. 

“Am I going to Hell?”

I don’t know. I don’t even know who you are.  Even if I knew you, I wouldn’t know if you’re going to Hell. The question is:  Are you right with Jesus?  If you make mistakes, do you repent?  Do you thank God for his grace?  Is your life oriented towards Jesus, to make him Lord, to confess that he is Lord?  Do your actions belie your belief that he is, in fact, raised from the dead and God is, in fact, at work in you?

What does it mean that Christ descended into Hell?

Jesus proved his love for us by descending into Hell – a theological bit of pizzazz rarely talked about, though ultimately very significant.

Here it is in a nutshell:

We believe that Jesus died and descended into the depths of Hades (Ephesians 4.8-10).  He did not suffer, for his suffering was completed on the cross (John 19.30).   He preached to those tormented because of their sin (1 Peter 3.18, 20; 4.4), spreading the fragrance of himself even into Hell (2 Corinthians 2.14-16). He departed (Acts 2.27, 31), bearing the keys of Hades (Revelation 1.18) and destroying Death itself (Hebrews 2.14).

The doctrine of the descent into Hell is first and foremost a doctrine about love, God’s love for us, and the power of that love to go to all lengths, to descend to all depths and to go through virtually every barrier in order to redeem a wounded, huddled, frightened, paranoid, alienated, and unfree humanity.

Did God create Hell?  If so, why did He create something from which we need saving?

The most accurate theological answer is that Hell is not necessarily a place that God created.  It’s a place from which God has withdrawn.  It’s the place where he is not, rather than the place where everything is as he wants it to be.

So, why did he need something from which we need saving?  The question is maybe misplaced.  The question is:  Will you live with him? That’s the real question.

If you’re a Christian and you continually sin, is there ever a point where you can cross the line, where you sin too much and are condemned to Hell?

No, you can’t sin too much for the grace of God to make up the difference.  There is always grace for you (cf 2 Corinthians 12.9).  Think about when Jesus told his disciples to forgive not only seven times seven, but seventy times seven (cf Matthew 18.22).

When I worked for Campus Crusade, we used to say that question is misplaced.  Imagine that in order for you to get to heaven, figuratively speaking, you would have to live on the moon and the only way you could get to the moon was to jump high enough to arrive there under your own power. In other words, you had to be good enough or athletic enough or whatever super power enough to jump from here to the moon. Some of you might be able to jump only 6 inches and some of you might be able to jump four feet, but nobody can ever jump all the way to the moon. 

So, in effect, the question of our relative sinfulness is moot, because nobody is sinless enough or not quite so sinful as to ever make up the difference.  God’s grace covers for everybody, no matter how crappy you are, which I’m particularly happy about.

The question as to whether there is ever a point where you can cross the line or sin too much—the question refers to that scripture about the blasphemy of the Holy Spirit.  There’s a blasphemy of Holy Spirit—one sin which can never be forgiven (Mark 3.29). Basically, if you do this one sin, you blaspheme the Holy Spirit and automatically go to hell.  The whole idea of the blasphemy of the Holy Spirit is the ultimate rejection of God. 

The only way you can blaspheme the Holy Spirit is to reject God, reject God, reject God, reject God, and then die.  Even if you were still alive and rejecting God and rejecting God and rejecting God, there’s still grace. There’s still grace for everybody.  There’s still space for everybody, because Jesus, again, is standing there saying, “Come, come to the banquet.  There’s room for everyone.”

So, if you’re a Christian and continually sin, is there ever a point where you can cross the line or sin too much?  No, not if you keep fighting and trying to live as God intends you to live, not if you keep repenting, not if you keep inviting the Spirit to change you.  Just don’t give up.