Friday, March 09, 2012

christus victor

When I was a kid growing up in church we used to sing this song, Victory in Jesus. And, whether it was the song or something else, it seemed like 'victory in Jesus' was a pretty popular idea around Calvary Community Church. Crazed tambourinists shouted it, lonely widows claimed it, drunks begged for it, and the choir hummed it in the background of the Sunday sermon. Consequently, I grew up in an ecosystem of victory chants and ejaculations, a veritable smorgasbord of Christian conquest.

I miss that.

For a time I was embarrassed by all the hootin' and hollarin' (as they liked to call it), but those good folks—gardeners of God's eternality, as I now recall—had something most people lack. And they had it in spades.

They had hope.

They believed that no matter how bad things got, no matter how dire their straits or grim their chances, that God's Spirit was on the move to save, to heal, to rescue, and to restore. They had hope when it looked like pure fantasy, and they had it for the most ridiculous things. They hoped money would show up on their door steps at night while they slept, and they hoped their children would be unable to sleep because God's Spirit would convict them of their sin and they would fall to their knees in spectacular repentance, they had hope for divine deliverance and supernatural healing, hope for jobs and better jobs, hope for mystical romances that practically fell from heaven. And, lo and behold (for those are, indeed, perfectly suitable words here), they would find money and receive gifts, and their children did run to the altar to get both saved and married (sometimes simultaneously). Not always. But lots. And when they didn't get what they wanted, or get it in the way they desired, that didn't stop them from shouting, claiming, walking, and believing for victory.

When I look at my midwestern town, with all its economic woes and cultural false-starts, I think we could use a little victory. I think we outta start drinking that victory Kool Aid. Because those folks that raised me had it right.

We've got something to hope for, because we've got someone on whom to rest all our hopes. And Christ Jesus didn't just make a few promises about a better life later on, he won the decisive victory against the powers of darkness on the cross. He defeated death, he made a show of the powers of Satan and his subordinates, and he reversed the effects of sin on the human soul.

And because he won the victory, and because we are united with him through his Holy Spirit, we share in that victory too.

Victory in Jesus, my savior forever.

And this victory isn't at all like the victories recognized by the rest of the world. This isn't competition or comparison or domination or control. This isn't about "success" and it's certainly not about "winning" (apologies to Charlie Sheen, of course). Christian victory is about more than external results. Oh sure—those have a role to play and they're important in their own right—but make no mistake, what God wants to do IN his people is far more significant than what he wants his people to accomplish. His work is making us like him. Whether or not we're like him and famous or like him and beautiful is less consequential than whether or not we're loving like him or self-sacrificial like him.

That's why Christian victory is about overcoming obstacles, and demolishing strongholds, about rising above adversity and putting to death our sinful nature in cooperation with the Spirit of God.

Because the victory isn't really ours. It's his, but we get to share it. The victory is in us, like something we've got to incubate or gestate, not beyond us like something we've got to achieve, or reach, or perform.

So if you find yourself hopeless, despondent, melancholy and hurting, try and remember this: he won, so you can live in victory. Get started by telling him thank you, and then start thinking hard about what he wants you to do with it.

thecommontruth.org

i just discovered that our old video series, the common truth, has had the short films pulled. i'll see what's up, but--for now--i thought i'd repost them here. taylor did such a great job of producing them, it'd be a shame not to show them off one more time.




Palm Sunday from Taylor Keating on Vimeo.



Fig Monday from Taylor Keating on Vimeo.



Great Tuesday from Taylor Keating on Vimeo.



Spy Wednesday from Taylor Keating on Vimeo.



Maundy Thursday from Taylor Keating on Vimeo.





Good Friday from Taylor Keating on Vimeo.



Holy Saturday from Taylor Keating on Vimeo.



Easter Sunday from Taylor Keating on Vimeo.

Thursday, March 01, 2012

Enneagram: type 7

Everyone keeps raving about the Enneagram test, so I thought I'd take it. Here are my results:


Enneagram Test


Type Seven Overview

We have named this personality type The Enthusiast because Sevens are enthusiastic about almost everything that catches their attention. They approach life with curiosity, optimism, and a sense of adventure, like “kids in a candy store” who look at the world in wide-eyed, rapt anticipation of all the good things they are about to experience. They are bold and vivacious, pursuing what they want in life with a cheerful determination. They have a quality best described by the Yiddish word “chutzpah”—a kind of brash “nerviness.”

Although Sevens are in the Thinking Center, this is not immediately apparent because they tend to be extremely practical and engaged in a multitude of projects at any given time. Their thinking is anticipatory: they foresee events and generate ideas “on the fly,” favoring activities that stimulate their minds—which in turn generate more things to do and think about. Sevens are not necessarily intellectual or studious by any standard definition, although they are often intelligent and can be widely read and highly verbal. Their minds move rapidly from one idea to the next, making Sevens gifted at brainstorming and synthesizing information. Sevens are exhilarated by the rush of ideas and by the pleasure of being spontaneous, preferring broad overviews and the excitement of the initial stages of the creative process to probing a single topic in depth.

Devon, a successful business woman, shares with us some of the inner workings of her Seven mindset.

“I am definitely a list person. It’s not really for memory since I have a great memory. It’s more for down-loading information so that my mind won’t spin on it. For example, I was at a concert where the tickets were hard to get and very expensive. I couldn’t sit through it. My mind was torturing me with the things I needed to do. Finally, I had to get up and leave. This was very upsetting to the person I went with and I missed a good show.”

Sevens are frequently endowed with quick, agile minds, and can be exceptionally fast learners. This is true both of their ability to absorb information (language, facts, and procedures) and their ability to learn new manual skills—they tend to have excellent mind-body coordination, and manual dexterity (typewriting, piano playing, tennis). All of this can combine to make a Seven into the quintessential "Renaissance person."

Ironically, Sevens' wide-ranging curiosity and ability to learn quickly can also create problems for them. Because they are able to pick up many different skills with relative ease, it becomes more difficult for them to decide what to do with themselves. As a result, they also do not always value their abilities as they would if they had to struggle to gain them. When Sevens are more balanced however, their versatility, curiosity, and ability to learn can lead them to extraordinary achievement.

The root of their problem is common to all of the types of the Thinking Center: they are out of touch with the inner guidance and support of their Essential nature. As with Fives and Sixes, this creates a deep anxiety in Sevens. They do not feel that they know what to do or how to make choices that will be beneficial to themselves and others. Sevens cope with this anxiety in two ways. First, they try to keep their minds busy all of the time. As long as Sevens can keep their minds occupied, especially with projects and positive ideas for the future, they can, to some extent, keep anxiety and negative feelings out of conscious awareness. Likewise, since their thinking is stimulated by activity, Sevens are compelled to stay on the go, moving from one experience to the next, searching for more stimulation. This is not to say that Sevens are "spinning their wheels." They generally enjoy being practical and getting things done.

Frances, a successful business consultant, sounds more energetic than is humanly possible—and yet, she is a typical Seven:

“I am highly, highly productive. At the office, I am joyful and my mind is running at its best. I might create several marketing campaigns for a client, work on the outline for an upcoming seminar, talk out a difficult problem with a client on the telephone, close two deals, make a project list, dictate a few letters and look up to see that it’s 9:30 a.m. and my assistant is coming in to start our work for the day.”

Second, Sevens cope with the loss of Essential guidance by using the “trial and error” method: they try everything to make sure they know what is best. On a very deep level, Sevens do not feel that they can find what they really want in life. They therefore tend to try everything—and ultimately may even resort to anything as a substitute for what they are really looking for. (“If I can’t have what will really satisfy me, I’ll enjoy myself anyway. I’ll have all kinds of experiences—that way I will not feel bad about not getting what I really want.”)

We can see this in action even in the most trivial areas of their daily lives. Unable to decide whether he wants vanilla, chocolate, or strawberry ice cream, a Seven will want all three flavors—just to be sure that he does not miss out on the “right” choice. Having two weeks for a vacation and a desire to visit Europe brings a similar quandary. Which countries and cities to visit? Which sites to see? The Seven’s way of dealing with this will be to cram as many different countries, cities, and attractions into his vacation as possible. While they are scrambling after exciting experiences, the real object of their heart’s desire (their personal Rosebud, as it were) may be so deeply buried in their unconscious that they are never really aware of precisely what it is.

Furthermore, as Sevens speed up their pursuit of whatever seems to offer freedom and satisfaction, they tend to make worse choices, and they are less able to be satisfied because everything is experienced indirectly, through the dense filter of their fast-paced mental activity. The result is that Sevens end up anxious, frustrated, and enraged, with fewer resources available to them physically, emotionally, or financially. They may end up ruining their health, their relationships, and their finances in their search for happiness.

Gertrude is busy establishing her career and family now, but she looks back at how this tendency contributed to her getting a rough start in life.

“There wasn’t anything to do at home or in the tiny Southern town I grew up in. I was dying to get out of it and go someplace more exciting. When I was 16, I started dating, and before long I got pregnant, but the father didn’t want to marry me—which was okay since I didn’t want to marry him, either. It wasn’t too long before I found somebody else, and we got married, and I got to move to a larger city. But it didn’t really work out the way I wanted because after I had the baby, we broke up and I had to move back home. I stayed there for a year or two to get my feet on the ground. When things were looking bleak, I married someone else. I’m 19 now and I guess I’ve done a lot already.”

On the positive side, however, Sevens are extremely optimistic people—exuberant and upbeat. They are endowed with abundant vitality and a desire to fully participate in their lives each day. They are naturally cheerful and good humored, not taking themselves too seriously, or anything else for that matter. As we have seen, the Basic Desire of Sevens is to be satisfied, happy, and fulfilled, and when they are balanced within themselves, their joy and enthusiasm for life naturally affect everyone around them. They remind us of the pure pleasure of existence—the greatest gift of all.

(from The Wisdom of the Enneagram, p. 262-264)

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

telos materials

we've started a new class at the winds on wednesday nights. "telos" is a sequel to our 'intro to christian spirituality' class (called "doxa") and focuses on the goal of the christian life. in a word, that goal is "glory."

the word telos is the greek word for 'goal' or 'point' or 'objective', sometimes also parsed to mean 'perfect,' (as in, 'be ye perfect, for your heavenly father is perfect...' and yes, i just said 'ye.')

anyway - here are some of the visual aids i'll be using this week to try and summarize what we've talked about so far:











Thursday, January 26, 2012

Second Story Man: prologue

Prologue


The dream always starts the same way.

Nyeli comes to the door in a ripped shift. Her little eyes are watery, her bottom lip quivers, but she is brave. Sidon answers the door like he always does, gatekeeper and watchman. His broad shoulders could almost be wider than the girl is tall. Nyeli has the high features of the Shishalh, accented by her long eyes. She's such a soft thing, looking every bit the orphan. Sidon does too, in his own way, that of the mean streets and hard knocks. Eli is in his room, knowing why she's come and waiting for the dog to come and kiss him on the hands, summoning.

"It's in the woods," she says, and Eli knows she means the wendigo.

Sidon looks at his master, his stand-in father and mentor and sage. "Will you go?" he asks, and Eli nods. Cherub, the Bernese Mountain Dog, opens her mouth in a grin. The little girl loves the dog instantly, the way children do.

"Stay put," Eli says to Sidon. The younger man nods and closes the door behind the much, much older. Eli's white beard blows in the midnight wind, sand on a bleached shore. Nyeli reaches up to clutch at the beard and Eli smiles. It's a hard thing to smile when you go monster-hunting, but the wonder of a child is a magic all its own. Eli gently pulls Nyeli's hand away from the wool on his face and holds it. "Will you take me to the wendigo?" he asks. Nyeli nods, pushing her blue-black hair behind her ears with the other hand.

They go into the woods, the dark part, where the bad things live.

Despite all the stories, Eli knows what they go to see is not the wendigo. The wendigo is an old yarn from the First Nations, rare in the Pacific Northwest but more common as you move east. It has other names—Sasquatch, Yeti, Bigfoot, Abominable Snowman, New Jersey Devil—but they are all just made up folklore and fairy tales. Maybe the origin of the stories comes from the extravagance of movie stars like John Wayne, who once purchased an island in the San Juans and stocked it with African game so he and his friends could hunt. Maybe a gorilla got loose, or an orangutan. Or maybe there was just a guy who lived in the mountains that happened to be seen at the wrong time, in the right light, and looked like something else.

But there's no such thing as a wendigo, and no one knows this better than Eli, for he has lived in the mountains longer than any and has walked trails even medicine men have neglected. Even here, in the dream he's having for the hundredth time, he knows the wendigo isn't real.

But Nyeli doesn't know, and the dark part of the woods incites the dark part of her imagination. These three—little girl, old man, massive dog—traipse through the underbrush making no effort to conceal themselves. "Make noise, sweet," Eli says, "it keeps away the wolves." Nyeli grips the old man's hand that much tighter. Her fingernails would likely have penetrated his nut-brown skin if not for his faded flannel cuff hanging unbuttoned on his wrist. Eli is simply dressed, just jeans and boots, backpack and unbuttoned shirt, plain old clothes for a plain old man. He thinks of a story to tell, then decides against it. That's a rare thing, he says to himself and smirks. Cherub woofs and looks up at him. "You believe it, girl?" he asks the dog, though both girls look at him for clarification. "Here I am, a storyteller with no tale, a raconteur with nothing to recount."

Cherub races a few paces ahead, sniffing the ground excitedly. "What you got?" asks Eli. "Eh? What is it?" Eli skips a step or two to get closer, careful not to drag Nyeli behind him but willing to rush her more than she'd like. When they get close, they see that the dog has found a skeleton.

"What is it please, Mr. Eli?" asks Nyeli.

"Don't waste your 'mister-y' on me, sweet. I'm old, but I'm just Eli." Nyeli takes her hand away from the old man to hesitantly wipe her tears. The moon can barely penetrate the tall evergreen canopy, and the brush presses in close underneath it.

"What is it, please?"

"Kodiak," he says, and in the dream he remembers finding this giant bear. The skeleton was nearly as white as his beard, having been there a long time past when the maggots and flies found use of it. It had been picked, plucked, puckered, and left in perfect shape.

"Was it the wendigo?" Nyeli asks, and Eli almost laughs in response because the wendigo isn't real. He doesn’t laugh, though, because the thing that is out there, the thing Eli and Sidon and Cherub know is worse than a wendigo, could have killed ten kodiaks. Maybe not at once. Maybe.

"Not the wendigo, sugar," he replies. "Best keep moving."

The old man of the mountain goes deeper into the dark part than he has dared in a long time. He does not want to, but for the girl's sake he knows it is right. The timing is right to end an old evil, older than almost any remaining. How it came from Persia no longer seems to matter. After all, in the age of cell phones and Skype, transatlantic aircraft and Venusian landings, it hardly boggles the mind. Mostly Eli just feels foolish for not tending to this earlier. Sidon had shamed him once, and he'd been looking for this chance to make it right.

Eli had been looking to make things right for a long time.

Lycanthropes, as a rule, don't come near the First Nations peoples. "Maybe they're afraid of the wendigo," Eli says out loud but without any humor.

"Pardon, sir?" asks the girl. Eli grunts in return.

In truth, only a handful of the creatures had ever existed. They were always the offspring of sorcery, always the refuse of hate. Eli knew of only three for sure, though his friends at the Inn at the Edge of the World said there had been more. Thank God he hadn't had to deal with the rest. Three was enough.

Let’s hope four’s not too many.

"I have a story to tell, now, sweet. If you'd hear it." Eli's voice is loud in the woods, whose sounds have diminished without either he or the girl noticing.

"No thank you," she says.

"It's a story that will frighten the wendigo, and it may even frighten you, but I think it’s best."

"No thank you," Nyeli repeats, her voice sounding far away from Eli and from the woods. It is like a dream within this dream, that voice and plea. Cherub lets loose a low growl and pounces through the woods, chasing a rabbit perhaps. "Come back!" Nyeli shouts. "Won't he come back?" she asks.

Eli ignores this. His story was important. "The prophet Daniel told of a great king, Nebuchadnezzar, who became proud and spurned God," he begins. Nyeli reaches for his hand once more, and in the darkest part of the woods where there is no moon, Eli continues, penetrating the shroud of silence. "God was angry and sent the king into the woods to learn humility."

"Please sir, what is humility?"

Eli smiles. "To know I AM."

"What are you?" she asks.

"Less," Eli replies. I’m just an old man, he thinks. Nothing special, really. Not an angel or a wizard. Just old. He stops walking then, kneeling down in front of the girl and taking both her hands into one of his. There in the dark, his knuckles could pass for roots and his face for bark. He is part of the forest and that is good. "I'm going to hide you away in this tree and then I'm going to walk a few steps there." Eli points to a small clearing around which a ring of trees loom like a canopy of rakes. "I'm going to keep telling you this story, but you'll hear it up high." The old man, surprisingly strong for his twig arms and thin trunk, plucks the girl from the ground and sets her in a branch eight feet from the forest floor. Eli turns and wipes his hands on his denim pants and shakes the leaves from his steel-toed boots. He gets out a red kerchief and dabs his brow before stuffing it into the front pocket of his jeans. Then he thinks differently, and with a bitter mirth he pulls it out again and waves it in the clearing crying, "Toro, Toro, Nebuchadnezzar! Come skewer your man and choke."

The part of the dream when the red kerchief falls is the beginning of the end, the worst part, and the truest.

Eli shuffles his feet and moves in a circle, like the shamans used to do, and he claps his hands together and slaps them against his chest to make a sound like the beating of a broom on a haystack. His words come out in rhythms and his voice rises in a chant, a moan, a call. "His pride sent him to the wood, to eat as an animal and grow fangs like a wolf," he begins. Nyeli watches him from the tree, and in the dream Eli can still see her liquid eyes shining in the dark. "His back was feathered and his brow blunt," he hollers now, furious. "All men were his enemies. In time, God removed the curse but some men like the taste of blood. Some would rather stay accursed, or even seek a curse again, than accept the peace of grace." Eli stops his dance, bends over panting, then he stands up straight and yells, "Accursed, come now and be done!"

The trees bend to the side as the thing bursts upon the old man. Eli dives away to the right and rolls, miraculously, to his feet as Nyeli screams, "WENDIGO!" The beast is seven, eight feet tall, and one could call it either a feathered ape or a wolfish-bird, so great is the disparity between its many parts. Snout. Wings. Claws. Gambrels. The-thing-that-is-not-a-wendigo paws at the ground, shooting clods of dirt into the woods and baring great teeth at the millenigenarian. It crouches, ready to pounce, when in a second explosion from the forest Cherub tears through the woods and grabs the beast by its throat.

The two animals claw and scratch and writhe and shake and bite and snarl and ravage one another as Eli bolts away through the wood. "Stay in the tree!" he calls out to Nyeli.

"Eli!" she calls, her voice curdling and haunted. "Don't leave me!" But Eli runs through the darkened paths back to the kodiak. He doesn't like to do what he has now to do, but there it is. Lying on the bones, he intones a prayer. Some might call it a spell, but that would be a blasphemy. The bones begin to shake and to rumble, and the old man whispers one final injunction, "Take him to hell."

Then Eli is off, racing through the wood and following the sound of Nyeli's screams, which grow louder until the old man bursts through the bush like both the dog and the not-wendigo before him. He hadn't considered that Cherub could lose this fight, not really, not even when he had measured the lycanthrope and all its soiled soul, but Cherub is on the ground with a badly bleeding paw all the same. The lycanthrope is bleeding too, but Eli has never seen Cherub's blood. And there had been occasion for such a sight more than once.

"Get away!" Eli screams and the not-wendigo turns toward him once again, the dog forgotten. But there is no crouching this time, no preparation for a leaping attack, since close behind Eli is his conjuration and from the woods comes the skeletal-bear. Twelve feet tall, pneumatikos animata, it roars and the leaves blow from the branches. Nyeli screams again as the skeletal bear and the not-wendigo slam into each other, two titans of the supernatural, like rams. But the not-wendigo is overmatched and out-smarted, for Eli has not envisioned the bear as a contestant but as a cage. The skeletal-bear's chest opens to receive the lycanthrope and closes to encapsulate it. A humming noise comes from within the skeletal-bear as the lycanthrope changes back into a man. Middle-aged, tired, middle-eastern, confused.

"Don't send me there," he begs Eli.

"I have waited longer than I should to do what I must," says Eli, and then the old man bows his head and whispers once more. The humming noise increases, filling the clearing with the sound of a thousand, thousand bees in a swarm, ending in an eruption of light. Eli covers his eyes, as does Nyeli, and when they are again able to look, both the skeleton-bear and its prisoner are gone.

It is daytime and the dream ends.

Eli woke in his low-bed, sweating and crying and clutching the hairs of his best friend beside him. Cherub hardly stirred. The dream always bothered him. But never as much as when it happened that night in the wood.

Sunday, January 22, 2012

working on a new one...

in the jewish mystical tradition, there are literally thousands of tales concerning the prophet elijah coming back to earth and performing weird miracles, telling tall tales, and generally screwing up bad guys while helping good ones. after all the fun i had with the undwelllable city, and all the positive feedback, i thought that my next project for the winds would be a kind of hybrid teaching atlas//novel.

"second story man" is a compilation of over a hundred different legends, fables, folktales and myths from christian history and tradition, all woven together in a larger framing story concerning the prophet elijah. we'll teach through some of it in the cue, beginning mid-february, and the book will be available exclusively through the westwinds bookstore.

thanks again everybody, for all your well-wishes, constructive criticism, and support!

d.

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Friday, October 14, 2011

The Undwellable City (30 second promo)

nice comments from my editor

Julie Little is my editor. She's done contract work for Westwinds for the last couple of years, editing several atlases for myself, Ben, and Jvo. She's very skilled and a pleasure to work with.

Julie's first love is fiction; so, when I decided to write The Undwellable City she was the logical person to call and ask for help. And she has been fantastically helpful. She sees holes in the plot, inconsistencies in the characters, and makes useful suggestions about conflict, tension, and pacing.

Plus she fixes all my spelling mistakes :)

At the end of editing part four Julie wrote me the following note. I don't normally like to post stuff like this, but I was genuinely touched by her kind words. I'm reprinting them here so I never lose them:

And the thriller continues! You are going to have people beating down your door to get to Part 5. Way to go; this is awesome stuff! I loved reading this. A true page-turner. You seem to know just where to twist the plot and leave the readers hanging, and you also draw on some very thought-provoking themes without beating us over the head with them. This character is so realistic, flawed, and human. I’m amazed at the world you have created and its spiritual parallels. You have a knack for novels, I think; maybe this is a new genre for you!


Pretty cool, huh?

Julie - whatever we're paying you, it's not enough