i've always thought that god can use "a crooked stick" to draw a "straight line"
and i still do
every teacher/preacher/apostle/etc... is flawed [aka "crooked"] to some extent
by virtue of the fact that we learn/are expanded as a result of any of my/their teachings/inspiration, obviously god is using them to point us to him
but i'm really wrestling lately with the difference between "flawed" and "crooked"
i consider myself flawed
because i'm not perfect
i'm still prone to losing my temper
acting like an idiot
speaking out of frustration
not watching my tongue
in no way would i consider myself "crooked"
by which i mean
to the lifestyle advocated in the new testament scriptures
i see plenty of examples of people who seem to disregard these lifestyle commands
and also seem to prosper in ministry
which is hard for me
which forced me to deal with my own issues about significance, meaning, calling, ministry, and judgement
but also makes me wonder about accountability
what are we to do
if we see someone living contrary to the scriptures
who is in leadership
but who has no accountability?
no governing authority to whom they are supposed to report?
no one to "remove them" from their "position"?
this is scary to me
because i think - in the absence of accountability - the only thing that truly authenticates the ministry of someone is their charisma and their talent
and we are all easily swayed by those
this may be why the book of jude is given to us in our bibles
but i'm wrestling about whether or not instructing people to read and re-read the book of jude is ever really a sufficient response to the ironies and injustices i see in the world of ministry around me.
how about you?