i'm on day 3 of writing "sin monkey." just taking a break now for a quick shower and late lunch.
it's good stuff - the atlas, i mean, not the macaroni and cheese i'll shortly be eating
but i confess i feel stupider :) than normal, having just holed myself up only the week before last to finished my manuscript for navpress.
that's a lot of time in the hole.
of course, manscript time was invigorating - especially until carmel forbade me to smoke my pipe in the office - but writing sin monkey is good too.
it's funny, in all our fusion talks about shadowing god i realize we've only ever talked about relational and missional sins.
what i mean is, we focused our "don'ts" on things like family, friendship, ecology, justice, etc.
but we've not spoken much about piety.
we've not spoken a ton about the way we speak, the way we think, the inputs/outputs of our daily lives.
i wonder if that has as much to do with my upbringing as i suspect...or, if maybe that omission is telling of my own blindspots.
certainly anyone who knows me knows that i've always struggled with speech. when i'm angry or tired or frustrated or - sadly - even overly relaxed my speech is typically pg-13.
i'd like to change that.
it may always be the sin i struggle against most; but i do want to keep struggling. i can, of course, find ways to justify why it's "ok" to speak this way in most of the particular cases...but i know i'm just justifying my lack of self-control.
since i've already been justified for real, i'd like to keep working on making it obvious.